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Part One, of Freefalls and Human Rights
In February I posted three pieces
from my Thursday night class, Three About
Me, so… why not post three from my weekly “Friday Morning Freefall” writers
group? Call it, Three About Politics.
Both of my pieces from this Friday’s meeting are political, and I would only
have to find one more political freefall piece.
Freefall writing is where, without
editing as you go, blood comes out of your aorta and rushes onto the page. Call
it a right brain thing. Invented, they say, by W.O. Mitchell, freefall is where
you begin writing as soon as you hear the prompt,
and then write like mad until the time is nearly up. It’s nice to write without
pressure to be good. By definition, a freefall first draft won’t be as good as
deliberate “real writing”… yet sometimes it is. And sometimes a piece can be
the start of a book, or used “as is.”
Our weekly meeting even has, get
this, a blog where we sometimes post our pieces. I look forward to my Fridays.
Last week I walked down the sidewalk with a newer member, Marie, who said she
liked how the group is so loving. As indeed we are. Also, since we aren’t
sharing any “manuscripts,” we see no point in giving negative criticism. We explicitly try to be kind.
At FreeFall there is a charming, funny
senior citizen who always has to stop writing early because her hand gets
tired. This week she wrote of “killing the men” in order to cut down on the
population in order to save on resources. She doesn’t know where or how her
subconscious popped that one up.
The prompt she was using was
“depraved,” a prompt suggested by a middle aged lady who speaks an Islamic
language—I won’t reveal which country. Unfortunately, the lady speaks with a western accent, which makes her a target
of predators. She told us predators are widespread over there (where she lived
for several years) because there are no consequences from other citizens, let
alone from the legal system.
Meanwhile, in my traditional lonesome
prairie culture, molesting a woman is right up there with horse stealing: Other
citizens would rush to look for a rope and a tall tree, forgetting to involve
the legal system.
Yet… certain aspects of human
nature… are probably the same in every space and time. Over here, I’m sure, neither
gay women nor straight women would hope to have sex—or be “gang banged”—with many
partners at once, no, not even those terribly rich ladies in Hollywood. And
yet, if perchance a girl is assaulted
by a gang on the football field, or by a gang at a party with photos taken,
then other girls will comfort themselves by “blaming the victim,” by saying she
must have been a slut. Not a sensible
response at all, but a response well documented in the book Slut! Such comfort, of course, comes at
the expense of the victim. Back east, after first being gang raped and then being
accused by other girls, a teenage girl has committed suicide; the boys have
been charged.
My Freefall friend, praise Allah,
managed to escape an assault where other males were going to just stand by
doing nothing. Muslim friends always asked her, as their first question, “What
were you wearing?” I think they were hoping to comfort themselves by hearing
she was wearing a western Khaki sleeveless shirt or Bermuda shorts. Of course she
wasn’t—she lived there. And the very question makes me angry. Her too. Every
law worth legislating should be upheld by individuals and bystanders,
regardless of apparel… That’s my political belief.
Part Two, Some Freefalls
Here is my swift response to the
prompt
Depravity.
Is there anything more depraved
than valuing envy over serving your community? In a little French town if you
try to serve by organizing people to put sandbags along the river, well, you
won’t get any credit for your volunteer efforts—People will have too much envy,
saying you are trying to be too important. Depravity to me is mouthing that God
is greater than the people but never stooping to help the unfortunate people.
Well, it’s hard to be noble if everyone around you is saying, “What’s the use?”
Hard to live in a world where you can’t do anything without bribing everyone at
all levels, and even then your livelihood is not secure if somebody’s nephew
wants to move into the business.
In a sense, the poor frontier of
300 years ago was more progressive than many modern nations. “What does Ben
Franklin think?” the community asked as they organized libraries and
firefighting and schools and recreation leagues and service clubs and asylums
and hospitals… It was safe to organize in the absence of depravity.
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The other prompt this Friday was
“jeans.” Oh, the memories and opinions that prompt caused! After I read my
piece aloud, a woman who lived under communism asked, “How did you know that we
had to have a positive attitude?” She told us that you needed a doctor’s note
in order to miss the May Day (international worker’s day) holiday parade. Here’s
what I dashed off for the prompt
Jeans
I was watching all my fellow
workers stride along the crimson corridors of factoplex 95: home of the world’s
best tractors. They all had blue jeans, blue coveralls or, for some of the
younger women, blue denim shorts, if they worked in an office doing stenography
or punch cards. Everybody—Ok, most bodies, knew their shorts were a little
extra worked on to be faded or snug, but what proletariat in their right mind
would complain? The higher our morale the better we could fight the “capitalist
roaders” and “secret fascists.”
I watched them striding along
healthily, as it was Monday, we weren’t tired yet, and this was the day the
Party Members would show up with working cameras to document our positive
attitudes. I always know when a female and equal comrade comes into the
room—or, in this case, comes into my radar range. It was Fiona, coming right up
beside me. She had a light denim shirt, perfectly regulation, but one that that
clung too much and I happened to know she ironed too much, because I was a
lucky body who had been over to her place—on a very long date.
In one swift step she claimed her
right to come past scanner range into sensor range—nice perfume— and into
thermal range. I could, as we say in the reserves, feel her heat signature.
“Carl,” she breathed “I don’t see any important people going by.” In an instant
I stifled any remarks about the salt of the earth, the slick cogs in the
machinery, the valves of the Party. Fiona is far more astute than I.
“What is it?” I asked out the
corner of my mouth.
“All the Party members are gone;
the shop stewards are gone and their office door is closed with the office empty;
the commissar’s parking spot is empty; and none of the camera crew is here.”
I didn’t want to think about it—but
Fiona’s more astute than I.
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Sometimes the prompt is a 2-D picture
or an object. One morning a transparent thing reminded me of a coral paperweight
found by Winston Smith back in nineteen eighty-four. I said so to my freefall
group.
Prompt:
It’s nice to be Islamic, of course.
Not like in those old benighted times when the Great Satan ruled us, when women
would fornicate in cars and Islam was under attack. No, now, Allah willing, we
have order in the world. But who can stop wondering about those old times when
people with too much pride built towers that were just too tall, scraping the
sky, setting man’s ambition against God’s?
Sometimes I wander the old streets,
past the old style buildings, and I wonder. Of course I am glad we tossed out
Satan, but still I wonder. In my mind’s eye the sinners are always at night,
with light spilling out of doorways to the sound of loud laughter and tall
folks looking like Abraham Lincoln.
Besides their idolatrous paintings,
what else did they have? Did they know the beauty of Allah’s natural world? Some
did. Recently I found something, in an old store in the old part of town. It
was light glass, round like a cup, but with a tapering shape and inside was a
very old beauty: strange grass and plants and corral and, at the top, a pretty
yellow butterfly. For how many decades, generations, had the butterfly perched
there? Who owned it? Did he… or she… dream that one day Allah’s will and sharia
law would prevail? Surely someone who loved nature craved a righteous world! I
took it home in secret, and I secretly put it in my drawer.
It’s nice to be
Islamic, but some things have to be kept secret.
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To find that third political piece,
I had to cut and paste from our Freefall Fridays blog. Next to my piece I found
my Thigh High Boots. I include it, just
for fun.
Thigh High Boots Posted on January 4, 2013
My sister was always a handful:
first to get a tattoo, first to get a silver stud on her cheek, and first in—in
a lot of things. No, she didn’t eat goldfish or streak—that was our Dad’s
generation. One late October afternoon, out by the tree swing, I was doing
something normal—one of us had to be normal—I was merely doing some underage
drinking. Our widowed father was off in town somewhere working in the office
again. My sister came up to me and said, “Good grief, is that all you are
doing? No Panama red?”
I replied, “Someone has to be
normal around here, with Dad wearing a suit, and you—Say, is that what you are
wearing tonight?” She was wearing a long cotton pioneer lady dress. “Don’t tell
me you are going as a Mormon.”
“No,” she said, “I am going as a
liberated Mormon. Guess what’s under my dress.”
“Uh, geez,” I squinted “Not your
typical lady stuff?”
“Nope. I plan to disrobe… Don’t say
‘strip,’ say disrobe…. Ready? Here it comes!” and off went her long dress. From
the shoulders down. She must have
practiced. She always practiced dance moves too. What caught my attention was
the thigh high boots. In basic black. And hot pants. Black. And a tube top. Black and red, horizontal
stripes.
I gave her the brother look number four, code for groovy, far out,
and anything else our father’s generation would have said.
“I want to know something.”
“What?” she said, trying to see if
she could dance with her dress over her shoulder.
“Where did you get those boots?”
Sean Crawford, March, 2014
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